Random...

This will be the last entry of the year.
I'm not good at "looking back" at the year, but this year has been eventfull. So many things have happened this year, I can't even recall everything now.
I wonder how the next year will turn out to be, I deffinitely don't wanna stay on the same spot, I want and I will be moving away from where I am now. How and when, I don't know, but I can't imagine being on the same spot for too long.

This year in short:

• Graduation parties, school's last months
• Last season with the synchronized skating team Northern Lights
• And no more skating practice for me...
• Electric Bass
• The whole Graduation itself
• The trip to Japan
• Meeting with longing friends in Tokyo
• New and best haircut
• My own digital system camera
• The whole University thing that I noticed isn't my thing, yet
• My first F in my whole life
• All the thoughts of what to do with life, EVERY day
• Trying to get a conclusion of all the thoughts
• Yet not a sure answer after around 2 years of thinking
• Hoping for an answer next year

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I can't help feeling everything is mendokusai for the moment. All these things.
I don't know why I feel this mendokusai feeling, it's just like this.
What to wear, how to look, with who to celebrate new year, etc etc.
Today, we'll have some guests, that's why we clean and make food and everything. After the dinner, I'll be heading towards my friend's appartment, where she and her sister will have a party until next day. After that, I'll see for how long I'll be staying.

And above all, the weather. Until yesterday it was quite warm, temperature around 3-5 degrees and not so bad weather. But today, it started to snow, the temperature has sunken till 1 degree and it'll surely rain or snow the whole evening and night. This weather sucks when it comes to go out. Cold and rainy. Yeah, this will be fun.

Well, Happy New Year to you all!

Koizora - were you happy?

Koizora

"Koizora" is a love story that was originally published on the popular cell phone site Mahou no iRando. It was authored by new writer Mika, and is based on her own experiences. The story was released in book form last October, selling more than a million copies in its first month.

The story revolves around Mika (named after the author), who falls in love with her classmate, Hiroki, upon entering high school. But over the course of the novel, she ends up suffering through many trials, such as rape, abortion, and betrayal.

Since I heard of this movie and watched the trailer, I was patiently waiting for the DVD release, but I was able to find it on the Internet, and I watched it today. This is an incredible story, and I really want to read the novel itself. This is a love story, but not the usual one, but a higher quality. This is a story you shouldn't miss out, this is something you really will cry on. A story that tells how sweet a love could be, as much as how painful it can be.

The description isn't so complete and doesn't explain the movie that good, but it's the one I found in English by Tokyograph. Search for better reviews and descriptions.

This is the year's must-watch movie, I strongly recommend it.

The actors are brilliant, and the story makes it all. What more could you ask for?

Rising Stars

Last weekend, me and my mum went to the southern side of Sweden, Gothenburg (Göteborg). My youngest brother (to the right) was competing in Swedish Nationals for the first time. He had one opponent. After a good short program, he was leading. But his free program wasn't good at all, worse than usual. But he got good grades on the 'program components' so he won with a couple of points, but it was close that he'll not win. His coach wasn't satisfied after the free program, but anyway, he won his first nationals.

After the medal ceremony, I rushed to my brother with my camera, and asked the Swedish champion, Kristoffer Berntsson, if I could photograph him with my brother. Here's the result! And I'm very proud of this shot (^O^)

And next year, the World Figure Skating Championship is going to be held in the same arena, me and my brother are going to watch it! Sweden will have two skaters in the category 'men', and one skater in the category 'ladies'. Both Kristoffer Berntsson and Adrian Schultheiss are very good skaters now, Adrian is even comparable with Kristoffer (who ended up 9th last year in worlds!!), so I think there is great chances for Sweden now!! Haven't been like this for YEARS! And at last, we have great skaters in the competitions!

Fever..!

yeah, I've got fever for the first time in so many years, I barely can't remember...
And it's happening exactly when I'm as busiest. So bad timing, there isn't worse... I had to find replacements for the figure skating lessons I had from 8 AM to 12 AM. And tomorrow, we're going to start with new things in the University, I really can't miss it, or I'll just won't understand a thing afterwards... And I have one hour on ice too... Who's going to take it??

It's been so long time since I had fever last time, I've forgot that it's this boring... I barely can't do a thing...!
Anyway, I have to go to bed now, try to make me free from the fever, at least until tomorrow...or I'll be crying...!

snow again

study study...but how?!

I'm supposed to study for the upcoming exam... But it's not going so well... I'm always finding something else to do instead of studying. Always doing everything but study. It's really bad, a bad habit I have since, I dunno when.
And two days has gone since I decided to really start study. As fast as I look at the books, as fast I don't have any will to study or open the books, or try to understand what I'm supposed to know for the exam.
I wonder why it has to be like this. Study new things, get to understand new things, should be interesting! And fun! Hey, you got to know something you've never known before! Isn't it excited?? ...no, not this time, or this subject. Economics... Why should it be so much things? Okay, I chosed the subject myself, but it's because I think it's good knowledge, whatever you'll do in life. But really, honestly, this is such a bore! I knew it wouldn't be as fun as photoshooting, but I tried to be positive, to have an open mind for this new thing I've never studied before. But I think it doesn't work all the time...

Anyway, today I'll not be able to do anything more. I've been on an evening-course, subject in musical science (?), about jazz, pop and rock, the whole evening. But this is interesting indeed! And the teacher show us interesting videoclips and let us hear music of popular artists that's been influenced the artists after themselves.
This is easier to study, the answer is: because I'm more interested in this. Economics isn't my thing, that's why I can't concentrate any good...

And the weather doesn't make this study-thing any better... Just cold and rainy, and dark. Such a bad weather... I need sunlight!! Or I can't study any good... There won't be any will because of this sucking weather...

Well, anyway, I think I'll be heading towards my bed soon... Better to try to wake up a bit earlier tomorrow, than doing nothing now...

sometimes, life just sucks...

Today's been, so far, the worst day this week...
I couldn't sleep tonight 'cause my dad was snoring in the room next to mine, Mimmi was walking around loudly just outside my door, I was irritated over things so that didn't make me able to sleep either. I had problems with my earphones to my iPod, and tried to get the problem away. I did fix the problem after some irritating moments.
I decided to go to my brother's bedroom downstairs, 'cause he's away until this evening, so I shut his noisy PC off, and got to bed. Somehow I got into not so peaceful sleep, but better than nothing.

In the morning before I had to wake up, my other brother's cellphone was ringing, very annoying. It was my mum trying to wake him up, but he was already awake and upstairs... So I woke up, 'cause I had no other choice. I went to the skating rink, thinking of what kind of exercises I should do with my skate-group today. And I was happy to finally meet one of my friends I haven't meet for weeks! But she didn't show up, so I thought that she maybe couldn't come this sunday, I was a bit sad... And when I was on my way down to the rink, I slipped with my skates on, didn't hurt that much, but I was so tired, think that's why I slipped, otherwise I never do that.
There were almost no kids around, and less parents. Didn't notice that much, and then I forgot my checklist, so I asked one of the trainer to get it for me, but she said "But your group doesn't have any practice today? It's autumn-break today". I was like "Okay...WHAT??!?!?". I had forgot, completely that today the youngest groups doesn't have any practice because it's autumn-break.
I got all blank, just climbing those stairs back to the trainer-room. Untying the skates, and "what now..? I just came here to tie and untie my skates...? Or..whatthehell!". My friend was going to take a group and have ground-practice, but she complained that she had to study for a test she's having tomorrow. And I offered to take the group, so that I have some reason to come here.
So I took the group instead of her. I did something anyway...

And when I got back home, I was tired, but not able to sleep again. I was thinking of a nap, so that I wouldn't be as tired the rest of the day... But couldn't.
So, I looked my mail... And I found one from e+ ticket service. It said I hadn't got any tickets for GLAY live in Tokyo...
... ... ... what the hell... Everything has to go bad today... It's just such day.
Nothing positive. What am I doing?
So this is the shit, no good sleep, fogetting things, slipping, no GLAY tickets --> means no trip to Tokyo either... Sometimes life sucks...

And I'm still tired, can't make a thing work today... (-__________-)

snow snow snow...

First snow has fallen, but it's around 4 degrees, so the snow is already melting away... I think it had fallen during the night, and when I woke up, it was white outside.
But the weather isn't cold enought to let the snow remain. Which results to water, and you get wet when you go outside, especially with the dog... Mimmi gets all wet just by going a short walk for 10 minutes...

I finally watched GLAY's performance on Music Station, they're really good! (^O^)
Today they're performing at Countdown TV, and Music Fighter.

Baby Birth! Congrats to Takuro and Seri-san!

One day, last week, TAKURO's wife Seri-san gave a birth to their second child, a girl Official site, you can see a photo of her and the child's hands, a very cute little hand! (^O^)
(Go to Diary to find the pic)
Takuro and Seri-san married in 2004, their first child, a boy, was born in October 2005. Iwahori Seri is a model.

Wish them good luck with both their children! \(^O^)/

Sources: Official site of model Iwahori Seri, SANSPO News

ONE OK ROCK - Etcetera

ONE OK ROCK's latest single, Etcetera PV.
Their latest single, also including c/o "Koukai Yaku ni Tatazu", both have a different sound from their previous releases, but both are very good (^^)

It'll be interesting to hear their first full album!

Exam on sunday, and going back one hour...

Tomorrow I'm gonna have the first exam in the University... Honestly I don't think I'll pass safely...
I don't know how to study, and that's why I haven't studied that much either. Today I've been very effective, I've been studying almost the whole day! ...well, okay, I mean half a day...hehe...
And now, I just don't have any more to go with, I have no "power" to study anymore... I'll just have to make the exam as it comes, as long as I pass. If I get 3 points out of 10, then I'll pass! But if the questions are too hard, I don't think I'll be able to pass... Then it'll be my first failure...hahaha ... very funny (-_____-)

Tomorrow, the "winter time" will start, or "standard time". All people in Sweden are going to back all the clocks 1 hour. We'll be able to sleep one hour more than today \(^O^)/
I've already backed almost every clock I own, 1 hour, only my PC are on "summer time", but I think it'll go back to "winter time" by itself. Don't have to worry... The important thing is the wake-up clock.

Aah, what a wonderful start in the morning with an exam on a SUNDAY! (^^;)
Wish me luck... I think I'll be needing much of it...

GLAY - SORRY LOVE

GLAY - SORRY LOVE


This is the 3rd song from GLAY's latest single "ASHES.EP", that will be out next Wednesday.
This song is very beautiful, and the PV too. It makes me cry, it really is beautiful, something that GLAY really are good at, make beautiful songs that makes you cry, even if you usually don't cry (like me..).
This makes me wanna hear the whole single even more!

Birthday child

お誕生日おめでとうございます JIRO!!

Today is GLAY's bassist JIRO's birthday. I wish him a great day!

GLAY Ashes -1969- PV

GLAY's New Single "Ashes -1969-" PV is out!
This PV was recorded in L.A. where GLAY was awhile ago. The single is going to be released this month, 31st October, with 4 songs.

GLAY - ASHES -1969-

ASHES.EP official site

NEW Single: ASHES.EP Official Site up!

There's a lot of fun on this site, so check it out!
They've finally come out with the "explanation" to the ".EP" -part of the single title.
EP stands for Extra Play.

Around a month left for the release!

AND: At HEY!x3 Special (aired 2007.09.24) they had the Million Hit Album ranking, the most sold Albums (over 20 million) during 1994-2007. GLAY scored some Album hits, like Heavy Gauge (42 of 64), Pure Soul (39 of 64), DRIVE (29 of 64), and last but not least REVIEW on the 3rd place!
Happy news indeed (^^)

ONE OK ROCK

I've found a new great band, quite young still, had their major debut this year, 2007.04.25 with the single "Naihi shinsho".
ONE OK ROCK, a young band that formed around 2006.
The vocalist TAKA is a former NewS member (Johnny's Entertainment), but he dropped after their so-called first single (it wasn't an "official" single, only sold in 7-Elevens and didn't count as their first single), because he wanted to continue his studies.
The members are around 18-20 years today, and they're having a single release this autumn.
Check these out:
Keep it real (Indies)
Naihi shinsho (Debut single)
Yume Yume (Newest single)


I've been thinking about their band name these days, and I have a theory that it's not what it looks like, like "one OKay rock". If you pronounce it in japanese, it becomes like this: "one OKu rock". This "oku" means milliard/billion. So maybe it says "one billion rock", makes more sense but at the same time less sense, what, in this case, do they wanna say with "one billion rock"??
Well, it's a question that I do not have the answer on, yet.

F*cking essay-writing...

Well, as you can see, not much happens lately..
This whole week I've been sitting in front of my PC, trying to write an essay for the University... But it's been like hell. At first I couldn't start, I had no idea about what I should write about, and I had no idea about HOW I should write this thing. So I didn't write a thing in the last weekend, and the monday. But starting from tuesday, I've continuously been in front of my PC, trying to be a good essay writer...
Tomorrow at 4 PM I have to hand in this essay. Today I've finished the main writing, and tomorrow I'll be doing a last check and try to shorten it a bit so that it fits the criterion. And after I've hand in the essay, I'll be in heaven for two and a half day, to return to a hell-week next week. Next week I'll have to go to the University every single day...that'll be like hell...

Anyway, one happy news is that I've at least taken some time to shop new clothes! It's rarely never happens to me. Unlike most girls, I really am not a big fan of shopping... I can't find the right clothes for me that I really like, and finding great jeans is like finding a contact lens in the sea. But this time I think I had the shopping-god with me or something, 'cause I found two good jeans! And some T-shirts and stuff. So I made some good shopping at last (^^)
But soon I have to go hunting again, 'cause I have to find a good jacket for the coming cold and dark season of winter...

Well well, some lines is better than no lines... I hope that I'll be able to write more interesting things and more often... so Stay Tuned! (^O^)v

Hatachi

Today I'm turning 20 years = Hatachi in Japanese.

Preview of Ashes -1969- from Rock Shock vol.04

Here's a short news preview of GLAY's new single "Ashes -1969-", performed at the Rock Shock vol.04.
Have a look (^^)

-----> Ashes -1969- LIVE performance

it's gettin' cold in here...

I've started some of my studies at the Stockholm University. Most of the students in my course are so much older than me, seems like most of them are over 25 yrs at least. Most of them have studied in the University one or more years before. But there are a few that are in my age or around my age. I hope I'll have some fun anyway (^^).

Starting today, the temperature won't get higher than 15 degrees, and today it's been raining very hard at one time. Maybe the autumn has already begun here... I'm freezing wherever I am, outside or inside. Ah, at times like these I really wish I lived somewhere warmer. I hope the autumn hasn't arrived yet, that some last summerdays are coming. But seeing the weather forecast, it doesn't seem like there would be any summerdays left here...

Anyway, I'm going to my first University 'lesson' tomorrow. I hope I won't fall asleep. (The 'lesson' is 3 hours long...!). Ah, I forgot to tell that I'm going to study one economy course. I have no idea if it's fun or not, it doesn't seem to be so fun, but good to know. That's why I've chosen to study at least one course of economy studies.

GLAY NEW Single and Live DVD!!!

New Single　 2007年10月31日　(31st October)
Release タイトル： Ashes.EP
＜収録曲＞
M-1 ASHES -1969-
M-2 ROSY
M-3 SORRY LOVE
M-4 MOTHER NATURE'S SON (Beatles cover)

◇初回限定盤DVD付：TOCT-22285　\1,500（税込）
※DVDには、MUSIC CLIP及びドキュメンタリー映像収録予定。
◇通常盤：TOCT-22286　\1,200（税込）
GLAY Official Site

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New Live DVD 2007年11月7日 (7th November)
Release タイトル: GLAY Arena Tour 2007
"Love is Beautiful" -complete edition-

◇価格\4,800（税込）2枚組/BOOKLET付
※初回限定生産　Specialサックケース仕様

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So to my comments.
Yes, I've been very tired today somehow, but after seeing this news, I became sooo happy!! I can hardly express my feelings here, but it's like the Easter Rabbit arrived too early with a bag full of chocolate!

I've been reading TERU's Blog lately, and he's been writing that the new songs they've mixed in the studio are so great that he wants everyone to hear them already! So I think the single will be great! (^O^)
Whole FOUR new songs!!

....I have to end now, I'm gonna eat dinner...

Last summer week

I'm in my last summer week. For 5 days I'm a skating coach for five small children. They're very cute, but they are not good at listen to people... So our practices aren't the best, but I'm trying my best to make them learn something.
Only three days left. It's the first time I have this group, they're the youngest group in our skating club, but in a level so that they can practice on summer too. So they're not newbies, but almost...

Today is GLAY LiB CAFE's last day, I hope it went well. I wanted to go too, but unfortunately I can't fly to Japan like Superman...

Anyway, this is it so far.

Ismuffins

Yesterday I went to Tumba to watch the team practice. Because I know they practice good, I baked cupcakes for them. I took a recipe and remade it a bit. Everyone liked my cupcakes very much! (^O^)
I call them "Ice muffins" (Ice cupcakes).

GLAY LiB CAFE

During the days 2007.07.31 - 2007.08.15 they're going to have the GLAY LiB CAFE at VenusFort in Odaiba, Tokyo.

Harry Potter and Dog paws...

I've finished the last Harry Potter book!!

Yeah, at last I've finished it. Late? Someone may think, but better read it slowly than try to read it all, and miss important moments.
But, this far, I haven't melt everything, so I can't really say what I think about the last one. Not really as I expected it would end, but it always is like that when I've read the other Harry Potter books. And I think J.K. Rowling wants the reader to be surprised, not to make it as the reader thinks it would happen, but instead take different routes, completely the other direction, the opposite of what a reader would be thinking of.

I don't want to spoil or give out spoilers about the book, so I won't be telling more about it here. If you are just a slightly curious about how the story ends, just go to and buy it, start reading it.
Many things happens already just by starting to read it.

And my dad and I tried to cut the nails on our dog's paws. But she was so scared and cried out every time my dad took one of her paws and tried to cut one of the nails. He succeeded from time to time, but it took so much time just by holding her.
So after more than an hour we gave up.

Just as the other days, today's been a day with weather from sun to rain, temperature from 15 degrees up to 22. Very shifting weather...

And tomorrow....

Boringness and bananflugor

Yes, now I'm back home in Sweden....
I came home yesterday evening, and today it's been raining, sunny for ten minutes, rain again, and now it's just cloudy... Temperature around 20 degrees Celcius, cold inside the house, boring, reading the last Harry Potter, boring, cold, reading again, sleepy, and so it goes on.

Yeah, I have to say, it is a boring place here sometimes. I have to say that even if it's too much people on the streets in Tokyo, it feels better than having just air passing by outside the house.

I was walking our dog earlier this morning, and the only people I met on the way was two workers who worked on a house not so far from my house. And raindrops where the other things I met when I walked with Mimmi. Where are all people? Still on vacation on different places on earth, I think.

I've unpacked my things, so much things... dunno where to put them...
Dad's gone to his job, and my brother went somewhere with his girlfriend. So here I am sitting in front of my PC having just our dog as company (who sleeps just outside my door).
Aah! I have forgot all the small, very irritating bananflies (bananflugor). Dad forgot to take out the trash and there they are now, hundreds and thousands of these irritating bastards...!
I'm gonna kill them all, but easier to say than have it done...
Some of these bastards has found their way to my window too... I see two or three of them right in front of me... hatred.

Anyway, I'm going to my fly-killing mission now, so see you afterwards.

GLAY Tour 2007-2008

GLAY Tour 2007-2008 is settled!!
And I will go, no matter what! I'm going to save money and go to Tokyo in February and go to their concert! I've made the decision a long time ago already.
Here's the tour list.

Yesterday, my brother went to a Karaoke with his friend, and at the same time me and my host mother and sister went to a Karaoke nearby too. I haven't been on a Karaoke for so long, and when I did go to a Karaoke with some friends, I couldn't sing at all... and I really mean that I couldn't sing at ALL...!
This time we went to a Karaoke because my host sister had one day off from school and we had no plans for the day. She wanted to go to a Karaoke so much, so why not. It was like practice for me too. But I did sing some songs! I couldn't sing that good, but I sang the lyrics quite okay! Surprisingly, hahaha (^^)

Two days ago, on Saturday, me and my brother went to Yomiuri-Land with one of my host sisters and her boyfriend. Yomiuri-Land is an attraction place. There was not so much people there, but it was alright anyway. We saw Yomiuri Giants' training court (baseball-team). Really cool! (^^)
We had a lot of fun at Yomiuri-Land, and was there all day.

And the day before, on Friday evening, I went to a re-union party.
While I was an exchange student here in tokyo, I went to a private girl-high school. I made lots of friends there, and my friend set up the re-union party just because I'm in Japan! So cute of her!! We were around 17 from the class and even our teacher came! He's a very good teacher and loved by his former-students (us). We talked about what we do lately, and what plans we have for summer, and of course if we have boyfriends or not.
Most of all study seriously and have a side-job. For me, after summer will be a new start, so hearing what everyone do now, was very good to hear. It seems that they are so busy, so that they have no time to see each other either, so this re-union was really a good opportunity for everyone to meet again!

Soon, me and my brother will be headed south on Japan for a week, we're going to visit our grandparents! But at the same time, my mother and my other two brothers are going to be there. They're going to Japan today, land there tomorrow, and the next day, we two will be arriving to our grandparents too. I hope my grandparents will survive the storm made by us... ahahah....

Rolling Sushi

Lately, we've been in many places, for example in the Roppongi Hills we went to the top of the Mori Tower. The view was very beautiful! When seen from the top, Tokyo is so big, like there is no ending... neverending city.

Today, we went to Harajuku again, but with one of my host sisters, the middle one. She knows a lot of places. And we also went to "Hide"s market, Maasai Market. (Hide was a guy who was in Ainori for a while). He wasn't there, but when Ami (the host sister) was there one day, he also was there. But anyway, there were so many cute things!! At the shop, he sells different gods from Africa, some of the things he have designed and/or remade by himself. I bought two beautiful rings. But I wanted to buy so many other things... at times like these, you wish you were a rich person... hahaha

And we ate at a "Kaiten-zushi", a restaurant where the Sushi is put on small plates, then on a rolling link (?), and you can take those sushi you want to eat, you pay as much as the number of plates you've taken.

Tomorrow, is another day.

Good Shopping! (^O^)

Today is sunday, very early in the morning, my host parents and one of my host sisters, me and my brother took a drive thru Tokyo. They explained where different places where, what different buildings were and things like that. I took some pictures too.

Today was not hot at all, around 25 degrees, no sun, some waterdrops falling from time to time, it wasn't "mushi-mushi" at all. Very good weather, not tiring.
But unfortunately, almost every one was tired after all these past days of walking, so we didn't go somewhere far today. We were mostly at home, taking some naps from time to time, one of my host sisters had a school work about the movie "Ghostbusters". I've actually never seen the movie, only heard the theme song/melody.
I didn't watch so seriously, but I followed it.
I read manga instead. Much better...

After the lunch, me and my brother looked in some stores around the neighbourhood. I found some pretty cheap but fine T-shirts and one shorts! I was happy!
Afterwards we went to see what the 100-yen shop had, and at last we went to Book-Off, a store where they sell second hand books, mangas, CD/DVD for cheap price. I found many GLAY singles! And I bought some videos and DVDs from different concerts!
I'm satisfied! I bought much, but for very good prices.

This is for today, I think! (^^)

Coming to Tokyo...

I'm now in Tokyo!
I haven't been able to have some time to write here, but everything is fine. The weather isn't as hot as I thought, today was pretty good temperature, you can say that it was perfect temperature.

I've done straight perm and shortened the hair pretty much, I've never had this short hair!
It's quite a good feeling, 'cause now it's not as hot as with long hair.
My brother did the straight perm as well, same time as me. I thought that it wouldn't become so good, but it fits him quite well!

This far, it's great, We've been around in Shibuya a lot, and some at Harajuku. We're planning to go to Roppongi Hills and around there too, they've made a new place there, it's called the Midtown. Many expensive stuff...

It's very good to see all the members of my host family again! They haven't changed alot.

Well, I have to end around here, but I'll try to write here again soon!

This far

It was some time ago I wrote something here..
Well, yesterday my youngest brother went to his figure skating camp in northern part of Sweden, today my second youngest brother went to a music camp, and tomorrow me and my closest little brother are going to Japan. And my parents will be home alone together for the first time since they got children!
They've been to Tokyo together alone some years ago, but never completely alone in our house for so long! For 5 days.
But I bet my mum is going to say "it was so boring without you..." even if she won't have arguing screaming kids around, because dad's going to be at work during daytime.

Today, I'll have to pack all my things, I've begun, but just with the clothes... And we'll have to buy some presents (omiyage) to some people.
Anyway, this far it's still okay.

iPod nano (PRODUCT)RED Special Edition

Today, my iPod arrived!! (^O^)v
It's an iPod (product)red 8GB, and JBL reference 220 earphones. I'm so happy!!

This Special Edition of the iPod nano series gives the Global Fund of HIV/AIDS in Africa money for each iPod (product)red that is sold, so one part of the money goes to the Fund.

the pillows

I saw the pillows 15th anniversary concert. It was a good concert, can't believe they've been playing for 15 years now! It's so unbelieveable... what a good feeling to be able to play in a group for that long, and still have a huge group of fans! It is also said that it was hard to get tickets to this concert, I really can understand.

"RAIN"

I visited TERU's blog, where he writes that they're in their pre-production period.
From his blog the 15th June, it says TOSHI still sleeps, TAKURO sings the song they're about to work with, HISASHI supports TAKURO, and JIRO also still sleeps.
It is fun to be able to read how they're having their daily life going. I hope they're will be able to come up with some good songs (^^)
Ganbatte! o(^O^)o

As for me, it is a rainy day today, the whole day will just be full of rain... (-_-;) so I'm not so happy about it. And (I think), because of this shitty weather, I have a slight head ache. I really head head aches...

I've started to listen to a new group, UVERworld. They have some good music. A short intro on Wiki: [LINK]
I like for example the song "Zero no kotae". Their new single "endscape" is also good.

It's only 9 days or so left, until me and my brother flies to Tokyo! (^O^) Can't hardly wait!!

@-->---

Around noon, one of our family's closest friend passed away suddenly, after being in the hospital for just a couple of days...

Sad but true, and unbelieveable, still. He was so close to our family, with the biggest smile on his face everytime we saw eachother, but we're only humans.

Finished!!

I'm finished with school!
I had some leftovers because I was in Japan and missed some parts of the History course. So I had to do two tests, one writing and one speaking. And I did the writing part this monday, and today I did the speaking part. I got highest grades even if I couldn't believe myself, and I didn't answer all questions to 100%, but the teacher said it was good and the speaking part too. So I didn't waste all the time for reading the history book. I'm so relieved now!
So I bought one of my favourite ice creams today, the Swedish GB Glace Magnum Strawberry-white. So yummy!!

From now on, I'll be planning the Tokyo-travel, so I know what I want to do and go, I don't wanna miss something, and I have a month, so I'll have to plan a bit so that everything fits somehow. (^^)
We'll see if I'm going to be able to take my PC with me or not, or I'll be borrowing one of my host family's PCs.

Aaaah, feels good! (^^)

"Blades of Glory" ....or?

Together with some team mates, we went to the cinema and watched Blades of Glory. We all skate and we all know that figure skating isn't like what they show us in this movie, so we were laughing so much during the movie. I think we were disturbing the others a bit... But there weren't that much people in the cinema.
But it was fun just watching it, some real figure skaters were also casted, for example on the top picture, you can see the talented and famous Scott Hamilton (Wiki) in the middle as a sports anchor. And I think that Nancy Kerrigan also were in the movie.
The picture beneath is one of the favourite lifting pose in the movie.

How would the figure skating world be like, if they were allowed to have men's pair...!

And once again...happy birthdays!

These were for yesterday, but I had some very irritating problem with uploading pictures, that's why they show up one day later...
Anyway, better late than never (^^)

Birthdays, birthdays...!

Today is my two favourite actors' birthdays!! o(^O^)o

Johnny Depp is turning 44 years old. He's the best actor I ever know and will know. Okay, he's very hot and stuff like that, but look at his acting skills! He can act whatever role the film industry gives him, and he does it better than the best! That's why I admire him so much. And his look is just a plus in the corner.

Natalie Portman is turning 26 years old. She's my favourite actress. I really love when she played Padmé in Star Wars, and when she played Novalee in Where the Heart Is. Soon I'm going to watch one of her latest movie, Goya's Ghost.
She is very beautiful, no wonder why she also is modelling (^^)

I wish them both happiness and I hope they're having a great time on their birthdays!

(Oh my...so many birthdays these days...!) (^^;)

Happy Birthdays!

Today is the birthday of GLAY's TERU! Happy Birthday TERU!
He's turning 36 years today, I hope he's having a good time!

Not only that, the drummer Toshi Nagai also had his birthday yesterday, he turned 43 years old.

And GLAY itself turned 13 years!

Graduation 5 June 2007

Sad feeling... Ending

These are some of my work from school, I took them home today.
It felt kind of sad when I packed my things from art, seing all these works I've been doing during high school. But, we have to move on (^^)

I see it now, I really only do things in blue....hm... My favorite color is blue, but so many things in blue...I didn't count on that... geez hahaha.
Anyway, I don't paint all in blue anyway, the paintings and drawings are coming home on friday, couldn't take everything with me today.

So, only a couple of days left until graduation... Feels...many things.
Difficult to explain this feeling. I've been trying to describe, but it's really hard. Many feelings mixed into one big weird feeling.
Anyway, today was a cloudy day, I really hope the weather will be better...!

READ THIS! (OvO)

Read this article:
A Rolling Stones Article

....amazing..!

The Leader's Birthday

The Leader of GLAY, Takuro's birthday was yesterday. He's now 36 years old, even if I can't tell that just by looking at him... (^^)

Takuro is the composer of almost all the GLAY songs. He's been influenced by the Beatles and John Lennon.
With his friend Teru, they started the band GLAY in high school, at the beginning just for fun, like any usual high school student. Hisashi came as a guitarist, and later on, Jiro as the bassist.

I really admire this person, not just because all the beautiful songs he's been written and will write in future, but he's maturity and kindness. He's the cool but kind guy in GLAY (sure, Hisashi's cool too, but in another way). He really takes the lead-job, and the other members have told that whenever they have something in mind, they go to Takuro to discuss things out. Takuro is "Onii-chan", the Big Brother in the band.
And the last but not least, he's the tallest bandmember, which brings a model-like, very beautiful figure.

And, last a picture of what I call "Takuro Pose":

Grease...grous

I finished my last home works!! (^O^)

And today was the last performance with the team, DIF (Djurgårdens IF) had their ice show with the theme Grease. The team performed too, haft of us as guys and the other half as girls. I was a girl.
We skated well, even though we had only practiced it two three times.
But the "finale" was embarrassing... we did moves that was so humiliating that one girl totally refused to skate the final number. I understand her fully... but I had to skate, or the others would refuse too, because everyone felt the same.
After our performance, our coaches went home. So when the final was over, the arrangers and coaches got flowers, but both our coaches wasn't there, so it was not the best impression.
After that, they wanted to photograph everyone who skated at the show, but because of the embarrassing final, we went directly to the changing room and began to change, 'cause we didn't know they wanted to take photos.
But anyway, we didn't participate and I'm kind of happy for that...

The one thing I was very angry at, was that they had misspell our team name in the program sheet. Instead of "Team Northern Lights" they wrote "Nordic Lights". What the hell??? How hard is it to write the name right?? I mean, our team name is "Aurora" but in English, and if you know English and you live in Sweden, then it's not hard at all to write the right name!
I hate when people misspell names. And don't they have a second checking before printing? I mean, they sold the program sheets to people who came to watch the show, and how the hell are they going to find us on the Internet or so if someone gets interested, if they misspell the name??
Argh! I can't stand it!!

Well, there goes my anger...
Tomorrow is rather a joyful day! I have only one lesson, which is art. We're going to clean our things and separate them to taking home-things and throw away-things. So not much work.
After that, me and my friends are going to see Pirates of the Caribbean 3!! 0(^O^)o
Wooow!

Drink up, me 'earties, YOHO! ....Savvy?!

Almost 4 years ago, I went to the cinema with my new classmates, not knowing that I was on my way to a "world" of Jack Sparrow's adventures.

Today, the third movie of "Pirates of the Caribbean" has begun to show in almost every known cinema.

Unfortunately, I have to wait until friday to see the movie, because I have two school works to finish today, and tomorrow the team will be skating in an ice show with the theme "Grease".
But, even if I have to wait until friday, we have great seats at the cinema, so it's worth it.
One of my classmates saw the movie this midnight, she said that Jack Sparrow was more than great. I'll take her word and be patiently waiting the friday to arrive...

Until then...
Drink up, me 'earties, YOHO!

"Date with the Emperor!"

Yes, today the Japanese Emperor and his wife arrived here in Sweden, Stockholm.
They're here for the celebratio of the Swedish Carl von Linné 300 years celebration. At this photo, they're shaking hands with the Swedish Crown princess Victoria. (LINK)

For the welcome, the kids and their parents at the Japanese School in Stockholm was invited to welcome the Emperor to a place called Hagaparken in Stockholm.
This was planned to take place outside, but unfortunately just at the moment when they where to arrive at Hagaparken, it started to rain slightly, so only the kids (and me and my brother...) and the teachers were able to go to the entrance to welcome them. The parents couldn't participate, because of the small area at the entrance.

We stood there waving the flags of Sweden and Japan, the kids was as kids usually are, noisy. The police and security guards where standing here and there, two camera men with their two lightening men was at place too (think they came from Japan...), and we waited.

At last, they arrived, with many police cars and black cars. When they walked in, all the kids got quiet and just looked with big eyes. The Emperor and his wife greeted us with some talk, after them came Princess Victoria, asking some of us if we could speak Japanese AND Swedish etc.

It was kind of unbelieveable feeling, standing there greeting highly people I've only seen on TV and newspapers. But the Emperor and his wife was so cute! Both had the same nyance of gray hair, they where just the perfect heigh for each other and had big smiles when seing us.
Unfortunately, the most exciting of us, the parents, couldn't participate at all. Mum asked us thousands of questions afterwards. I felt a bit sorry for them, just because of little rain in bad time.

Yesterday was such a beautiful sunny day, and this morning was okay too! But just the one hour when the Emperor arrived, it had to start to rain, and not much either. Because after the arrival, the rain stopped and the sun was looking out a bit.
No luck this time...

But now, it's raining quite much here at home... (-.-)

Biribiri Crashman + SHUTTER SPEEDS no teema

Biribiri 1999 LIVE IN BIG EGG

Teru's hairstyle is really cool in this concert. When seing this clip, I really want to be there at the concert!! Makes me wanna go to their concert even more!
Don't forget to look when Teru fingers Jiro's head-thing when they sing together in the middle (^O^)

This one is SHUTTER SPEEDS no teema, Jiro's composed song. GLAY UNPLUGGED 1999.12.13 (GLAY Acoustic LIVE in Nihon Budokan produced by JIRO)
This concert was held secretly to GLAY fans. More info --> Japanese
This one, I really enjoy. I love the original song, so when I looked and listened to this, it was so fun and that's why I enjoyed it so much!
If you want to hear and see the original one, visit the following link --> SHUTTER SPEEDS no teema

Settled!!

Yeah!! o(>0<)b
It's settled now!! 26 Juny to 26 July, me and my bro are going to Tokyo!! Waai!!
At last, it's been settled and I can begin to plan my travel, hehehehe (*v*)

I was shopping with my friend while listening to all the scandals that happened during our school's so-called prom night. (In Sweden, we don't have any real prom nights, like in the US or so, we have an official school prom night, but not everybody comes to it anyway, just those who have money or really wanna go... I didn't go, neither did my other friend go)
One of the school staff, the one that arranges these things at our school, she got quite drunk and was doing things with many male students in our school... not good at all... I wonder how the things' will turn out in our school after that. Not only with the students, she was kissing and making things with one of our athlete teachers...!!
Well, and a lot more happened, that I really didn't expected would happen... I was very surprised hearing those stories from my friend.

Anyway, I found a couple of small things, and I found a pair of white shoes for the graduation! They weren't expensive at all, so I took them! And I'm happy for that (^o^)o
Even my mum liked the shoes, and they fitted her feet too (^^)

Oh, it's getting late again... I'm so good at being awake till so late, or shall I say so early in the next morning... Well well, I shall start going to bed.

~(#o#~) (~#o#)~

I went to school to take some shoots for my last task in Photography B course. I used my friend Victoria as a model, put some make-up (that isn't visible at this photo.... (-_-;) )

This is what I did today, mostly...

And I might have found my graduation clothes (^^)

Sushi and Goose

Here it comes, one of the pictures of the Sushi I was talking about some days before. I have more pictures, but this one was the best so I choosed it. They were delicious, not the most beautiful ones, but still okay (^^)

I've not been able to sleep deeply last night, so when we had our very early morning English test in reading and listening, I slipped my concentration a bit here and there during the test... I don't think I did any good, but I hope I'll be okay, at least safe hopefully... Then I had two hours of nothing-doing dead time, doing exactly nothing... I really could just lean my head on the table and start sleep, but I didn't.

Every year, our school has something called "Gåsruset", "Goose race" if you say it in English. All students and teachers and everyone at our school are going to run, go or whatever, 5 km in the woods near our school. Then you gain points depending on how fast you run or go these 5 km. The class that gains most points per person, they'll get a school T-shirt. But, many do cheat during the race, like hiding in the bush or in the woods, then comes out after a half an hour or so, trying to look like a tired running people or something. Some of my friends in another class goes to a nearby Pizzeria and eat pizza, then goes back to goal after 45-60 minutes. Well, there are many ways to not run the whole 5 km. While there are cheating people, there are still those who run seriously, they're really admiring.

Anyway, I have to go to sleep now, so that I don't black out here in front of the PC...

bilddagboken.se

I've got myself a "bilddagboken", a Swedish site for pictures, photos, and a kind of diary... I made one because my friend Kikki is now an exchange student in Japan, and I want to be able to see her photos from there, so that I can follow her daily life (^^)
Anyway, the link is: http://misterpopcorn.bilddagboken.se/
if someone is interested.
C ya

"You can CELEBRATION"

Wow!! 50th post in this blog!
Didn't thought that I'll be writing here this long, but it can be quite fun to write down in a blog, put some pics and stuff...

Today, I was just about to get into the "deep sleep", when my alarm began to sound and I had to get up... I was SO tired, I couldn't move at all, was kind of hard turning off the alarm clock... It felt like I didn't sleep deep at all, until just before the alarm...
So, I went to school in a kind of stand-by mode or something, I wasn't asleep, but still I wasn't fully awake. It was just some weird feeling, and I was acting quite weird too, I think...
And this day, I had to stay at school from 8 am to 3 pm or so, with only a lesson in the morning, and one in afternoon some 3-4 hours later.

Anyway, today my brother and I got to the music store and I bought that bass I was talking about. Ibanez GSR180BK (LINK)
Now, the journey to a new world has begun, the world of learning a new instrument. The road seems a bit tricky, but I've promised myself that I'll be able to get to the goal, no matter what!
Wish me luck! (^0^)

Pollen allergic...!!! and more....

Wow... It was a looooong time since I last wrote here.
Before that, I really am very irritated to this pollen season. I didn't have ANY problems with it, until last year, when I felt I reacted a bit. But this year, it's worse. My nose is like a waterfall, and I'm sneeze like never before. I can't believe this. I really hope it's not gonna be like this my whole life, I can't stand being as my mum who can't go out without having millions of problems with whatever the pollens can do. I can't stand a life like that.

Anyway, during this time, one of the things that happened was, my mum did so many Sushi one day, so I photogaphed it with my digital system camera. I haven't put them in my PC yet, but when I put them in, I'll post them here too. 'Cause it's a bit amazing, my mum did it so good, although she isn't that great with doing sushi.
That day, my brother's girlfriend came by, so she got to taste the sushi too. She liked them and ate with good appetite.

Now, there is less than a month to the graduation...! I really can't believe it, because there is so much left to do. There is so much work at school, I've written all down on a paper to get a clearer view of it.
And all the preparation for the graduation has to be done. I hope everything will fall right at the end. I really hope it will do...

But, first up is tomorrow, a test on the Christianity. I don't understand everything, but I've been reading quite lot at the Internet, and my notes from the lessons, a crappy school book too. I think I know everything somehow. I'll try to do the best of it.

Two albums I've been listening to a bit lately are STRAIGHTENER's new album LINEAR, and the pillows new album Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
Both are really great, I really recommend them. Both of them has many songs that are great, I didn't have much expectations, but I'm happy for that, now my happiness of listening to them are bigger (^^)
LINEAR has great songs like Six Day Wonder (PV) and Berserker Tune.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up! has great songs like Wake up! Dodo (PV) and Scarecrow (PV).

This is for today, I've got to go to bed soon, tomorrow is another day of work, in different meanings.
See ya soon!

Ouch!!

Today, I mean 29 april, Sunday.

I had one of my most "Ouch!" practice ever in my life.

I fell hardly two times on the same knee, now it's a big ouching bruise there, on my left knee. After that, some of us practiced a spin, where you sit very low, using your thigh. Doing that many times at once, you not only get dizzy by doing the spins, but also putting much strain on your thigh. So after doing the spins, most of us got cramp in that muscle.
Then we began doing practices where you lift your leg back and hold it there while gliding. I did one great, but because of not paying any good attention, I just did something and fell on my own edge and scratched my right elbow. Now it sting...
After the practice, I began to feel how my left calf hurted. I didn't think so much about it, and got home. But then I felt it more and more.

Now, I'm kind of handicapped. Can't walk normally without feeling ouch somewhere on my body. My left leg is a total mess, the knee, both upper and lower muscles, and my ass still hurts since thursday practice, an elbow with a stingy scratch. I wonder if I'll be better tomorrow....

Poor dog...

Picture and article from Aftonbladet.se (Link) 25 april 2007, Wednesday.

This is what happened to the dog Keano, he was wanted to befriend with the neighboor labrador. But after sticking in the nose, ears and the whole head, he couldn't move away from there. The neighboor discovered the stucked Keano, 6 months old eskimo-dog, and alarmed the fire brigade. It took them half an hour to get Keano out of there, he made it without any injuries.

(Keano is named after the soccerplayer Roy Keane)

Bakuon Drop!!

Tomorrow... Every third year student in Sweden is going to face a big exam tomorrow. 5 hours writing exam in Swedish. 5 hours, I've never been sitting on the same chair for so long! I wonder if I'm going to be able to sit for that long.
It's said that we'll going to get a sandwich and something to drink after two hours or so, but I wonder how much that would help...
I bought some Marabou chocolate and a yoghurt drink for the exam, so that I won't be able to fall asleep somewhere in the middle of the test... Wish me luck.. haha

So, for this sake, I didn't go to my practice today, because if I did go, I'll come home after 11 pm, eat and take a shower, and go to bed around 12 pm if I'm lucky and fast enough. Usually I can't go to bed before 1 am after these practices. Then I'll get only 5 or 6 hours' sleep, if so much. I don't know if I can afford that. So I decided in the last minute not to go to the practice. I'll go to sleep early, so that I get at least 8 hours' sleep.
So, in a few minutes I'm going to bed.
Good Night! ...zzz

Sleepy Dragon...

It was an intensive weekend this time...
Saturday and Sunday was this coach course for figure skating, interesting and good, but you really get tired by sitting and listening to the "teacher" for many many hours.
Saturday night I went to town for a "graduation-party". It was very fun, and the theme was to change style, for example to 70s clothing and so on. So everybody on the party had clothes they aren't usually wearing. It was some interesting costumes here and there. My so called style was kind of rock style, mixed with Hisashi hairstyle and make-up. Many came to me and said they really liked the hairstyle. Hahaha....did it on ten minutes or so....same with the make-up.

I tried not to stay out too late, because of the course the day after. But even if I leaved around 11 pm, I had to take a shower and pack things to the practice I had after the course, it became quite late afterall...
So, on Sunday, I was quite tired, tried to stay focus with eating apples and candies they had prepared for us on the table.
After the course, I had to stay because of the practice with the team in the same place as the course was held. But on the practice, I was not as alert as I should've been. I got tired quite fast and the practice was 2 hours nonstop.
Somehow, I managed to stay on my feet, and my mum came to pick me up, so I didn't need to travel home by train. Which I was happy for, because it was raining at the time the practice ended. So I was very grateful when mum picked me up.

On wednesday we have a 5 hours long writing exam in Swedish... It's said that we'll get a sandwich during the writing, but I wonder how I'll be able to sit still for such a long time...!! I've never done that before... I hope you'll get a chance to move and stand up, so that you won't fall asleep during the exam... hehe.

Happy Swing!! ...but not the best day...

I recieved my first Happy Swing Issue!! o(^O^)o Vol.44
Immediately I opened it and looked through the pages and started to read one after one. It really is something different with knowing that the members in GLAY reads their fans' letters and looking at their works, comments and answer to questions. And to be able to be a part of it, feels special.

I felt so happy when I got it. But the happy feeling was crushed at home... My bad brothers didn't listen to mum, who yelled after them to do their homeworks, they didn't listen a bit and rushed around the house making irritating noises. A big mess.
Well, it's always like this, but today was even worse. I couldn't stand it a minute. So when I got outside to throw the trash out, I stayed outside for some quiet minutes, breathing fresh air. The sun was going to set and it was just peace...and quiet..
Then I had to go back inside again, because it began to get a bit chilly. Back to the noise again...

Shortly, today was a messy day, and this weekend is going to be hard too. I have to attend a course for coaches in figure skating. I'm going to learn things that will make me a higher coach/trainer. For two days, I hope it won't be too hard...

HAPPY! (^O^)

At last!! o(^O^)o
Today, my Happy Swing Member Card arrived! And it is said that it takes about 3 months for it to arrive, but it only took around 2! Happy Happy! (^^)

I can't wait until their issue arrives! Hopefully the latest month will arrive, but if I'm unlucky, I'll have to wait until June for the next issue.

Happy Swing is GLAY's Official Fanclub.
I was so sad that I couldn't become a member, 'cause I'm not living in Japan. But after reading on some fansites around the net, I saw that even people living outside Japan can become a member, and I rushed to post a letter to them.

This week, GLAY was no 1 with single "Kodou" on CountDown TV in Japan.

Easter break...

This week is my Easter break, and I have no school until monday.
I was at a hair dresser this thursday, and I cut my long hair. So now it's a bit shorter than before, but the hair dresser did a good job, so I'm satisfied. But I'll have to straighten it even more now, so that it'll look good. Anyway, it's been around a year since I was at a hair dresser last time, so it was time to cut it.

Today, my brother and I went to a guitar shop, where we looked at basses. We found one good bass for a good price, Ibanez. We played with it, while my brother's friend played on a electronic drum set. It was a good one, I think I'll take that bass.

「鼓動」

Today, GLAY is releasing their new single, Kodou.
Unfortunately, I don't live in Japan, so I can't go to any store to buy it... (-.-) But I've seen the PV for Kodou, and the song is very beautiful. It's the song for a new movie in Japan, Taitei no Ken, and starts showing in Japanese theaters 7 April.

April's Fooooooool!

Exactly, today's April Fool's Day.
But I haven't been fooled, nor fooled someone. I did these kind of things when I was a child, trying to come up with some fun jokes, but they wasn't the best ones...hahaha.
I've just been relaxing today, 'cause I have already finished my two school assignments yesterday. So I didn't have big plans for today.
But it's less than a week to my Easter-break!! I haven't planned it yet, but I'm not going to travel somewhere... It'll have to wait until summer. Then I'm going to TOKYO!! (>=<)
Can't wait!! Aaah!

In four days, GLAY's new single is releasing. I've already listen to one of their songs, Kodou. It's a beautiful song. I wonder how the other song, Toge, is like... I've heard the beginning and the end of it on Teru's radio program. It seems to be quite a fast song. I like fast songs (^^)

Ah, tomorrow is another day with school, we're going to clean and tidy up the art rooms, throw away stuff we don't need, clean the desks, tidy up our shelfs and stuff like that. Interesting, huh?

Canon EOS 400D

Finally!! o(^O^)o

My Canon EOS 400D has arrived! Now, I can experiment with it, hahaha.
I haven't tried it out yet, because I'm charging the battery now... But as soon as it is charged, I'm going to have some fun...!

This camera is said to be very good, and have got great reviews from different places. I'm so happy that I own one myself! I can't believe it yet, but it's really true! I 've been waiting to get one digital system camera for so long!! (>o<)

~ABBA~

Today, our figure skating club had the spring iceshow. Our theme was ABBA, the 70's most popular band in the world, ruling the music industries, and were from Sweden.
So, our club based the show on ABBA's hits, 14 hits, where single skaters and skating school were skating together, doing one big show.

We divided the show in two, and in between our team, Northern Lights, skated one program, they've been working with for the last two practices. But when I saw them skate, it was amazing and I was so proud! They had just two practices to do that program and it was well done!
My friend and I couldn't participate, because we had no time. We had to participate in our club's show, so we didn't skate with the team this time. It's sad, but what to do. You can't split in two, even if you badly want to.

But instead, we got finished with our own program, and it became quite good, actually (^^)
We skated to "Dancing Queen" as the last number in the show. And we did it good!! So, no regrets.

It feels good, that this show became good. At first, I wasn't so sure about the idea, with ABBA. Not that I don't like them, but it may become boring for the public. But it seems that it did work after all.

Now, I'm going to focus on the school and further, fully.

Zagreb Snowflakes Trophy 2007

Season's last competition, and my last competition in the synchronized skating career.
This competition, held in Zagreb, Croatia, was good and a good ending. Thinking back, I've been learning a lot about skating. It's been a wonderful opportunity for me to actually learn things that no one elsen teach me. I've become friends with people I wouldn't have met, if it wasn't for the team.
Now, I've just put some of my photos here, I have over 300 pics from this competition. But it'll be hard to put all of them here.



This, one sunny day (well, it was sunny every day, around 20 degrees, and it was spring time!), this is between the official practice and the short program competition. We went to the town, and me and my friend just had to buy strawberries. They were delicious!

This is the day after. Between the official practice and the free program. We were in town again, but in other parts. Then we saw this figure, and my two friends wanted to pose with the grafitti, and I took a shot!

This is when we are waiting for the prize ceremony. We're waiting just outside the ice. So we took some shots while waiting. This is one of the better pictures... (^^)

After the prize ceremony, we took team photos. But after that, we had a cry-out party. There are at least 6-7 of us that aren't going to skate with the team anymore, I'm one of them. Everybody were crying in each other's arms. It was so sad. I felt that this really was the last competition, and the end.

When we got to the hotel, we gathered in one of our rooms, and talked happy and good memories with the team. At the same time, we ate the gifts from the other teams (candies and stuff).

The last day, on our way home. This is outside the airport. We're enjoying the last moments of Zagreb and the sunny spring day, because we're on the way home to the colder, clouder Sweden.

Thinking back at the moments with the team, it's been unbelieveable and fun. I'm surely going to miss all this, and all teammates. We had difficulties, and the practices wasn't always the best. But those happy memories takes over the bad ones, and just by looking back I don't want to quit. But what to do, I can't become younger.

But this trip is going to be one of the happy memories.

I want to thank Northern Lights for giving me all those experiences and memories.

THANK YOU!!!

GLAY

Confusion

I went to the cinema with some friends today, and we watched the movie "Blood Diamond" with Leonardo DiCaprio. There, some of the children were taken by the rebellion and made as child soldiers, and had no other choise but to do what they were told. And the other people in Sierra Leone had no choise but to try surviving all the gun shots and other terrible things.
I can't believe that these things actually happened a few years ago, and that there are still so many children that still are child soldiers, who can't choose whether to want to be it or not.

We're all humans, but such difference between us! No wonder that there are wars, the earth is sick, animals who can't survive. What kind of creature humans are. It's so unbelieveable, humans are the smartest, but still the most egoistic, and not always the smartest.

So much bad things that's made by humans, how are we suppose to survive when we just do harm to ourselves?

But still, even if there are so many horrible things, there are good things too.
A smile.
I was listening to TERU's radio program on the internet, and he was talking about smiles. One smile, with happy feelings, can make other people happy, other beings around, happy.
If a student gets good grades on a test, she smiles, and maybe other people sees her smile, and they feel some kind of happiness, maybe small, but still a happiness that brings a smile on their lips to. And so it goes on, from one to another. A smile is something powerful, and good.
And I hope that one day, we'll end up happily smiling to eachother, doesn't need words, doesn't need anything but the smile on the lips.

After seing the movie, I was a bit sad. Me and my friends talked about it, about not being able to help those who was in the situation. We had a kind of an awkward feeling about the whole thing, and that it's not just this situation, but other that still are excisting today.
But I was thinking while walking home. Sure there are things to help those people, by many ways. It's just our decision to choose one of the ways. Maybe as a politician who brings the problem up and really do something about it. Or why not a photographer who can show the world how it is. Or a volunteer who actually goes to the places and helps. It is just up to us to choose one way, or two if possible.

But is it that easy?
I was thinking about myself. What would I choose? How would I do?

I have a whole lifetime to plan, I can decide almost whatever. So, what is my plan?
The thing is, I can sit here and write like this, but do I have the right to write this, say all this, when I'm so confused myself?

Confused....

aah, this isn't going to make me smarter, think I'll stop here. Before I get any more confused.

Question without an Answer

It's been a hell of a weekend.

National Championship in synchro-skating. Didn't go as expected, even if we had such great practices before. We had many good practices, but it didn't go as expected. And the judges gave us weird points, even our coaches didn't understand why they gave us those points. They're going to talk with the judges and ask what did cause this low points.

In about three weeks or so, we're going to Zagreb, for the season's last competition. And the last one I'll participate too, 'cause after that I'll become too old for the junior team. Hope that it will end good.

And now, we have something called sport's vacation, one week off from school when you can go skiing somewhere, or do other sports.
My whole family has gone upwards in Sweden to go skiing and snowboarding etc. But I'm left home, because I have to attend skating practices for Zagreb. I'm okay with it, 'cause now I can be home without all the noise the family does.

Today, I've been sleeping as long as I needed, and rented some movies and just done nothing specially. Something I usually can't do. So I'm enjoying it very much! Even though the movies wasn't the best ones...

But things always bothers me, and this what-to-do-with-future thing does bother me now. I really have to decide soon. And I've been thinking in different perspectives, no answer. How the hell am I suppose to find the answer? I mean, sure, the best is to continue study somewhere, but I find Sweden too boring for that, for the moment.

And I'm really not sure how my feelings for things are right now. I have simply no idea. I can't identify my feelings. I'm so messed up right now. I have no answer... I have no idea. Dunno what to do. I feel I can't find anything if I stay here like this, but at the same time, where would I ever find anything than here? Where to go otherwise?


I'm lost


sigh...