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This will be the last entry of the year.
I'm not good at "looking back" at the year, but this year has been eventfull. So many things have happened this year, I can't even recall everything now.
I wonder how the next year will turn out to be, I deffinitely don't wanna stay on the same spot, I want and I will be moving away from where I am now. How and when, I don't know, but I can't imagine being on the same spot for too long.

This year in short:

• Graduation parties, school's last months
• Last season with the synchronized skating team Northern Lights
• And no more skating practice for me...
• Electric Bass
• The whole Graduation itself
• The trip to Japan
• Meeting with longing friends in Tokyo
• New and best haircut
• My own digital system camera
• The whole University thing that I noticed isn't my thing, yet
• My first F in my whole life
• All the thoughts of what to do with life, EVERY day
• Trying to get a conclusion of all the thoughts
• Yet not a sure answer after around 2 years of thinking
• Hoping for an answer next year

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I can't help feeling everything is mendokusai for the moment. All these things.
I don't know why I feel this mendokusai feeling, it's just like this.
What to wear, how to look, with who to celebrate new year, etc etc.
Today, we'll have some guests, that's why we clean and make food and everything. After the dinner, I'll be heading towards my friend's appartment, where she and her sister will have a party until next day. After that, I'll see for how long I'll be staying.

And above all, the weather. Until yesterday it was quite warm, temperature around 3-5 degrees and not so bad weather. But today, it started to snow, the temperature has sunken till 1 degree and it'll surely rain or snow the whole evening and night. This weather sucks when it comes to go out. Cold and rainy. Yeah, this will be fun.

Well, Happy New Year to you all!

Koizora - were you happy?

Koizora

"Koizora" is a love story that was originally published on the popular cell phone site Mahou no iRando. It was authored by new writer Mika, and is based on her own experiences. The story was released in book form last October, selling more than a million copies in its first month.

The story revolves around Mika (named after the author), who falls in love with her classmate, Hiroki, upon entering high school. But over the course of the novel, she ends up suffering through many trials, such as rape, abortion, and betrayal.

Since I heard of this movie and watched the trailer, I was patiently waiting for the DVD release, but I was able to find it on the Internet, and I watched it today. This is an incredible story, and I really want to read the novel itself. This is a love story, but not the usual one, but a higher quality. This is a story you shouldn't miss out, this is something you really will cry on. A story that tells how sweet a love could be, as much as how painful it can be.

The description isn't so complete and doesn't explain the movie that good, but it's the one I found in English by Tokyograph. Search for better reviews and descriptions.

This is the year's must-watch movie, I strongly recommend it.

The actors are brilliant, and the story makes it all. What more could you ask for?

Rising Stars

Last weekend, me and my mum went to the southern side of Sweden, Gothenburg (Göteborg). My youngest brother (to the right) was competing in Swedish Nationals for the first time. He had one opponent. After a good short program, he was leading. But his free program wasn't good at all, worse than usual. But he got good grades on the 'program components' so he won with a couple of points, but it was close that he'll not win. His coach wasn't satisfied after the free program, but anyway, he won his first nationals.

After the medal ceremony, I rushed to my brother with my camera, and asked the Swedish champion, Kristoffer Berntsson, if I could photograph him with my brother. Here's the result! And I'm very proud of this shot (^O^)

And next year, the World Figure Skating Championship is going to be held in the same arena, me and my brother are going to watch it! Sweden will have two skaters in the category 'men', and one skater in the category 'ladies'. Both Kristoffer Berntsson and Adrian Schultheiss are very good skaters now, Adrian is even comparable with Kristoffer (who ended up 9th last year in worlds!!), so I think there is great chances for Sweden now!! Haven't been like this for YEARS! And at last, we have great skaters in the competitions!

Fever..!

yeah, I've got fever for the first time in so many years, I barely can't remember...
And it's happening exactly when I'm as busiest. So bad timing, there isn't worse... I had to find replacements for the figure skating lessons I had from 8 AM to 12 AM. And tomorrow, we're going to start with new things in the University, I really can't miss it, or I'll just won't understand a thing afterwards... And I have one hour on ice too... Who's going to take it??

It's been so long time since I had fever last time, I've forgot that it's this boring... I barely can't do a thing...!
Anyway, I have to go to bed now, try to make me free from the fever, at least until tomorrow...or I'll be crying...!

snow again

study study...but how?!

I'm supposed to study for the upcoming exam... But it's not going so well... I'm always finding something else to do instead of studying. Always doing everything but study. It's really bad, a bad habit I have since, I dunno when.
And two days has gone since I decided to really start study. As fast as I look at the books, as fast I don't have any will to study or open the books, or try to understand what I'm supposed to know for the exam.
I wonder why it has to be like this. Study new things, get to understand new things, should be interesting! And fun! Hey, you got to know something you've never known before! Isn't it excited?? ...no, not this time, or this subject. Economics... Why should it be so much things? Okay, I chosed the subject myself, but it's because I think it's good knowledge, whatever you'll do in life. But really, honestly, this is such a bore! I knew it wouldn't be as fun as photoshooting, but I tried to be positive, to have an open mind for this new thing I've never studied before. But I think it doesn't work all the time...

Anyway, today I'll not be able to do anything more. I've been on an evening-course, subject in musical science (?), about jazz, pop and rock, the whole evening. But this is interesting indeed! And the teacher show us interesting videoclips and let us hear music of popular artists that's been influenced the artists after themselves.
This is easier to study, the answer is: because I'm more interested in this. Economics isn't my thing, that's why I can't concentrate any good...

And the weather doesn't make this study-thing any better... Just cold and rainy, and dark. Such a bad weather... I need sunlight!! Or I can't study any good... There won't be any will because of this sucking weather...

Well, anyway, I think I'll be heading towards my bed soon... Better to try to wake up a bit earlier tomorrow, than doing nothing now...

sometimes, life just sucks...

Today's been, so far, the worst day this week...
I couldn't sleep tonight 'cause my dad was snoring in the room next to mine, Mimmi was walking around loudly just outside my door, I was irritated over things so that didn't make me able to sleep either. I had problems with my earphones to my iPod, and tried to get the problem away. I did fix the problem after some irritating moments.
I decided to go to my brother's bedroom downstairs, 'cause he's away until this evening, so I shut his noisy PC off, and got to bed. Somehow I got into not so peaceful sleep, but better than nothing.

In the morning before I had to wake up, my other brother's cellphone was ringing, very annoying. It was my mum trying to wake him up, but he was already awake and upstairs... So I woke up, 'cause I had no other choice. I went to the skating rink, thinking of what kind of exercises I should do with my skate-group today. And I was happy to finally meet one of my friends I haven't meet for weeks! But she didn't show up, so I thought that she maybe couldn't come this sunday, I was a bit sad... And when I was on my way down to the rink, I slipped with my skates on, didn't hurt that much, but I was so tired, think that's why I slipped, otherwise I never do that.
There were almost no kids around, and less parents. Didn't notice that much, and then I forgot my checklist, so I asked one of the trainer to get it for me, but she said "But your group doesn't have any practice today? It's autumn-break today". I was like "Okay...WHAT??!?!?". I had forgot, completely that today the youngest groups doesn't have any practice because it's autumn-break.
I got all blank, just climbing those stairs back to the trainer-room. Untying the skates, and "what now..? I just came here to tie and untie my skates...? Or..whatthehell!". My friend was going to take a group and have ground-practice, but she complained that she had to study for a test she's having tomorrow. And I offered to take the group, so that I have some reason to come here.
So I took the group instead of her. I did something anyway...

And when I got back home, I was tired, but not able to sleep again. I was thinking of a nap, so that I wouldn't be as tired the rest of the day... But couldn't.
So, I looked my mail... And I found one from e+ ticket service. It said I hadn't got any tickets for GLAY live in Tokyo...
... ... ... what the hell... Everything has to go bad today... It's just such day.
Nothing positive. What am I doing?
So this is the shit, no good sleep, fogetting things, slipping, no GLAY tickets --> means no trip to Tokyo either... Sometimes life sucks...

And I'm still tired, can't make a thing work today... (-__________-)